Really Trusting

Sometimes as a Christian who has grown up in church, I have the right answers and the right things to say to people when questions are asked or when complaints are made. When people complain about being stressed, or that they don't know what the future holds, I am always quick to say "Oh, just leave it to God because He's got it." That's real easy to say, but it's much more difficult to believe that in our hearts. So just to put it out there, I'm the biggest hypocrite in the world when it comes to this. I have one of the most uptight, anxiety-prone personalities there ever was, and I know all the right things to say to calm other people down, but most of the time I can't even listen to my own advice and just trust that God knows what he's doing. I think there are many of us who are like that-- very type-A, we have to know what is going on, and we have to know what is going to go on at ALL TIMES. Well guess what, life doesn't work like that. And I have to tell myself that all the time.

Just to update you on my life at the moment, my entire existence is in a state of unknowing right now. Am I going to get the summer job that I want? Where am I going to live? What school will I be placed at for observation/student teaching/whatever it is that next year entails? Why do I have to take classes in Cumming when I came to this school to be in Dahlonega? How am I going to pay for gas to drive 60 miles roundtrip every day next year? How am I going to have time to eat? Basically everything in my life right now is just up in the air, and that drives me NUTS. But guess what the answer to every single one of those questions is? God knows. And over the last few hours as I have really thought about my next couple of years of college and how incredibly busy they are going to be, and how am I going to even survive the next two years, a verse kept popping into my head: "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."-Jeremiah 29:11. So we all know this verse, and sometimes it is overused (not that something that the Lord has given to us can be overused, but you know what I mean), but it is really, really, true, and we just need to keep this in mind. Even if we don't know everything and even if we are going totally bonkers down here on Earth, the Lord has a plan for each and every one of our lives, and He knows what we're going to be doing, not just next semester, but for the rest of our lives. It is so comforting to know that even in the crazy world, God is in control and everything that happens is according to His marvelous plan. 

Always,

Caroline 

INFJ

I'm in a psychology class called Personality and Individual Differences, and it's all about the theory of personality. Basically in this class we take personality tests and questionnaires all the time, which is my jam. Our final paper is a reflective "Who Am I" paper, and we have to include our results of all these different tests we've taken. So, if you've ever taken the Myers-Briggs personality test, then you know what I mean when I say I'm an INFJ. That means (according to the Myers-Briggs test) that I am Introverted, iNtuitive, Feeling, and Judging. INFJs are some of the rarest types of people out there, so that's a pretty cool fact about me I suppose. The Lord has blessed every person with a very unique personality, and I am no different. As I sat here typing up some of my "Who Am I" paper, I thought I would write a semi-reflective blog post to maybe let those of you who read this (yes, Mom, you're not the only one who reads this) get a better sense of who I am. The INFJ personality type fits me to a tee. I am definitely introverted... ain't nobody got time to be around people all the time, that is just exhausting. Intuitive, well I definitely am pretty perceptive of what is going on around me, but who even really knows about that one. The feeling part, HA, have you met me? I feel everything x1000, whether it be happiness, sadness, jealousy, excitement. The judging.... well, not really sure what that means to be completely honest (I probably should, because I'm in this personality class, but....), but hey whatever, the overall profile of INFJ fits me. So, anywho, This is a really random post, but I haven't posted in a while, so. Yay. 

"Don't compare yourself with anyone in this world... if you do so, you are insulting yourself." -Bill Gates

Always,

Caroline